I am weak. God is strong. I experienced mountain top jubilation this past week. I stood on the precipice shouting out victory. Then in just a matter of moments, everything changed. Knocked off, I fell to the bottom. Shattered. Broken. Emptied.
I had no idea when I felt led to post about grace on Thursday morning, just how much I’d need by Thursday afternoon. Yes, His grace is sufficient. After going through a gamut of emotions, tears, fears, and anxieties, I assessed the situation. Like Angela at Becoming Me wrote on classifying bad news, this classifies as Major, but in my selfishness I saw it as cataclysmic.
I have been taking steps of faith, moving in a direction of desires that I believe are from the Lord. Everything was working and functioning so beautifully. Then brokenness hit me. I wondered if I was stepping out the wrong way, the wrong time or if this was an attempt of diversion by the enemy and/or a test from the Lord. There is something I feel so strong about and it has a deadline of Monday. Do I move toward it or do I quit?
After my soul settled with much prayer, I sought the Lord. I couldn’t hear Him myself, so I sought godly counsel. First, I sought counsel through my husband. He encouraged me to press on. Still uncertain, I sought godly counsel from one of my entrusted friend’s, one of my best confidants. She gave me words of wisdom from the Lord. Encouraged me and my spirit lightened. Still, I spoke with one more person. Like Gideon asking many times for confirmation, I asked one more time. The second friend who doesn’t know the first friend or what we spoke about, used the exact words and examples as my first friend. I was blown away. God spoke to me through these people within the same hour. I have heard clearly from the Lord.
2 Corinthians 12:9-10 Amplified
9But He said to me, My grace (My favor and loving-kindness and mercy) is enough for you [sufficient against any danger and enables you to bear the trouble manfully]; for My strength and power are made perfect (fulfilled and completed) and show themselves most effective in [your] weakness. Therefore, I will all the more gladly glory in my weaknesses and infirmities, that the strength and power of Christ (the Messiah) may rest (yes, may pitch a tent over and dwell) upon me!
10So for the sake of Christ, I am well pleased and take pleasure in infirmities, insults, hardships, persecutions, perplexities and distresses; for when I am weak [in human strength], then am I [truly] strong (able, powerful in divine strength).
I am weak. It is confirmed I have something the Lord wants me to do. I cannot operate in my strength. Only by the power of Christ who lives in me can I press on this weekend. I am in pieces, but He is my life. As Paul said, I shall take pleasure in this hardship and distress.
His grace is enough! For it is not me, but Christ that lives in me and in Christ shall I boast!!