Monday, May 19, 2008

Trust Only in God

Psalm 62 NCV

1 I find rest in God;
only he can save me.
2 He is my rock and my salvation.
He is my defender;
I will not be defeated.
3 How long will you attack someone?
Will all of you kill that person?
Who is like a leaning wall, like a fence ready to fall?
4 They are planning to make that person fall.
They enjoy telling lies.
With their mouths they bless,
but in their hearts they curse.
Selah
5 I find rest in God;
only he gives me hope.
6 He is my rock and my salvation.
He is my defender;
I will not be defeated.
7 My honor and salvation come from God.
He is my mighty rock and my protection.
8 People, trust God all the time.
Tell him all your problems,
because God is our protection.
Selah
9 The least of people are only a breath,
and even the greatest are just a lie.
On the scales, they weigh nothing;
together they are only a breath.
10 Do not trust in force.
Stealing is of no use.
Even if you gain more riches,
don't put your trust in them.

11 God has said this,
and I have heard it over and over:
God is strong.
12 The Lord is loving.
You reward people for what they have done.

This Psalm brings my anxious heart peace as I put all my trust in the Lord. I have no other choice. No ONE but HIM to turn to—In Christ alone I find rest & hope.

It seemed as if all the circumstances were falling so prayerfully in place like the pieces of a puzzle were laid out on the table and the picture was clear. Only a few more pieces and it would be complete.

Every step to this day showed evidence God was guiding this process. It all looked as if the will of God was coming to pass. The leadership in the church saw it. So many prayer warriors saw it. Other ministers saw it. But then…

Just as the puzzle looked like it would be completed a leg supporting the table broke and all the pieces fell to the floor and broke.

There is so much hurt in the body of Christ. God is love. God is the healer of emotions. God is a God of hope. Why can’t the body of Christ walk in unity? It grieves me to see division and dissension amongst the believers.

I love the Lord. I love HIS people. After the last couple of weeks, I’m certain of the call the Lord has placed on my life. What I’m not certain of is where HE wants me to serve HIM in the body.

I feel like a sheep left out in the pasture.

I desire to be under leadership in the body where I can be developed, equipped and trained in area of ministry the Lord has put on my heart.

My heart grieves over the broken leg today and all those affected by it.

I pray the Lord work out these circumstances. I pray HE picks up the pieces and put the picture together HIS way according to the vision HE has in HIS mind, not mine or anyone else. Lord have YOUR way. LORD YOUR will be done.

Blessings in Christ--

9 gracious comments:

littlerad said...

Shonda,
I lift up a prayer for you today, that the Lord shows you where he wants you to serve... You are a wondrer daughter of our Lord and he hasn't forgotten you, and he has made or is making a plase just for you, and when you see it, it will be your size, a perfect fit...
I hope that you are having a great day...
Connie
GBU

Patty said...

Shonda,
I have been where you are at. My former church has faced this kind of dissension for years and years. All in the name of God, mind you. We have prayed and prayed for victory, unity for this church. A lot have left the church that were causing the division. It is so sad. I pray that God will direct your path to the place He wants you to serve. He blessed me with a wonderful church and I am humbled to be a part of a church that truly minsiters to the community and all over the world. I know the church I am to serve in but I don't know the rest. I know God will reveal to me the place of ministry in His timing and until then I rest in this season and trust Him.
Have a great day!
Patty~

Alene said...

Hey girl,
How'd your speaking engagement go? I can't wait to meet you and hear all about your CLASS experience. Blessings today!
alene

annie's eyes said...

Beautiful post from a precious heart for the Lord. I am praying for you this day. I, too, have had my heart broken over church dissention. Didn't you love in this week's readings where Jerusalem acted as one body in support of their king. I thought how unity was pure evidence of the anointing of His Spirit. Don't give up on praying for more of His unifying Spirit. I will join you. Love, Annette

connorcolesmom said...

wmrsShonda,
I am so sorry to hear about the trials you are going through.

I experienced something in our church last year that was so painful and hard to understand.
However, God brought me through it and showed me His glory and grace.
I will lift you up and pray for this situation
God bless,
Kim

Ang baylis said...

I loved your post, Shonda. Psalm 62 stuck out to me, too. I'm so glad he wants us to come to Him with our concerns. I'm praying with you about direction. I love how you applied our readings to your life! You bless me and I'm glad you are reading this with me!
In His Love,
Angie xoxo

Karen H TX said...

What a heart felt plea you have made to our Lord. I know He has heard your prayer and knows your heart. I will be praying for you my sister. Karen

Bev Brandon said...

Love the hope you give away to me and many! You are so supportive and anyone would be delighted beyond measure to have you in their church for you walk so honestly, so humbly, so honoring to your LORD. So sorry for this breach and break in unity. How sad. Praying for you to know where to go...we kind of are in a similar circumstance. Much love, Bev

Marina said...

shonda, there will be an answer God will speake to you and guide you he will not leave you alond.love ,marina