Wednesday, September 3, 2008

I'm a Woman

Okay, I must confess—I feel like I’m just spinning.

The last week and a half shot past like a bullet. I’m wondering, about my fruit. The fruit of the spirit that is—

But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law. (Gal. 5:22-23)

I’ve been emotional, but I can chalk it up to hormones. I’ve been patient until you say something then I might bite off just a finger or an ear. I decided it would not be polite to take your whole head off (particularly my dear husband and my dear sons). But the most difficult is self-control especially when I’m not in control.

Now that might not make sense if you’re not a controlling type person. But I like to be in total control of my schedule. I like to have things-typically somewhat planned out. I usually leave room for modifications as adjustments are likely to be inevitable.

Like when I expected my boys to be out for the entire weekend and I had the house to myself. I wanted to write. No sooner do I get going good in the writing project, I learn they’re coming home a day early. Good news! It should be. I got to spend all day Monday with them. But that’s not what I planned.

Then Monday, I wander around aimlessly like a lost child. Not sure what to expect. Nope, I had no self-control.

Tuesday, no control a migraine. Wednesday, computer crashes. (I borrowed commandeered my son's computer to check email and post on the blog.)

I laughed and sang praises this morning. What else can I do? This is not serious stuff. Just not what I planned either. I think I’m doing better.

I used to be a lot like Dustin Hoffman’s character in Rain Man. If everything was not perfectly timed and on schedule, I totally freaked out.

No, I’m not that bad anymore. I can keep my dignity now. I laugh. Afterall –I’m a woman! A Proverbs 31 woman that is:

She is clothed with strength and dignity; she can laugh at the days to come. (Pv. 31:25)



Engrafted by His Grace--

12 gracious comments:

Nicole said...

I'm with you, I want to laugh at the days to come. Hmmm...have I been doing that late, I don't think so. Thanks for being real and the reminder. Hopefully I can follow through with this tomorrow!:)

Love,
Nicole

annie's eyes said...

Oh when strength and dignity evade us, Proverbs 31 seems like a mean rendition to vex us. Yet, as with most Scripture, there is a prescription with even that very verse--laugh. I am happy that He is in charge, yet I struggle with a false sense of control. Thank you for your profound comment on my post today. You got it despite my garbled attempt to convey something bigger than I had words for!

Living and laughing and loving this day with you. Love, Annette

Chel - An Abiding Branch said...

Shonda,
You are surfing the same brain wave again chica! lol
Chel

Momofsix said...

Ok- do you have video tape in my home? Are you watching me?

It is hard though to go with the follow when you want to accomplish so much!
Praise the Lord though- He is ultimately in control.. I can only imagine the mess I would make if I was.
Angie

Michelle V said...

That is all too familiar to me! I too tend to get frustrated when things don't go according to my plan and mess up my checklists! It happened to me this past Saturday! But, like you, I am getting better at laughing about it, and praising God that He is in control and not me!

Blessings
Michelle

Joyfulsister said...

Oh my sister..

I can totally relate to you on this post.Talk about always needing to be in control and when something throws me off what I planned it's like whoa watch out!! *smile* It wasn't just an ear and stuff, sistah it was the whole head!! But for me what happened was I ended up a with a serious health issue that I totally had no say so, or control over, and it was during that time I had to release that controling part of my life over to the Lord. When I look back alot now I really did made a big deal about things that did not seem so important back then, but at the time it seemed like it was. Don't be hard on yourself, we do also have to deal with the harmones lol..

Hugz Lorie

Alene said...

I am laughing right along with you girl! Of course, I'm laughing at myself. I'm having a week much like yours. This too shall pass and let's just keep on laughing. It's medicine for the soul! Love ya!

Marina said...

Alene, is right laughter is medicine for our soul ")

I think we all have times like that we go through where nothing seem to be going our way and maybe the Lord is just saying I am in control today ") love,
marina

Ang baylis said...

Self-control... WOW, I need some, too! I should be getting ready for my day and am on this computer instead! I can SO relate and am glad to be a woman along side of you!
Much love,
Angie xoxo

Speaking Thru Me Ministries said...

and i am not that different at all!!! hang tight to Him my freind!! love, Leigh

Mom of Many said...

Wow! Every time I talk with you, I realize how much more we are alike. I laugh because you say things as if you are thinking my exact thoughts. I am right there with you. And now that things are spinning out of control in our household, I keep telling myself God is IN control. I wish I didn't have to remind myself every few minutes. ; )

Melissa

lisasmith said...

Shonda, Someone just told me today that I was the "most laid back person ever." So, God does have a purpose in giving me this crazy life! hahaha all I can do is laugh (while I'm trying not to weep or scream!)